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Sunday, June 7th, 2009
11:44 pm	So You Think You Can Dance? hey all, I hope all is well.  I am enjoying my Summer break.  For those who watch the Fox show "So You Think You Can Dance."  My cousin Tony Bellissimo is one of the dancers.  I want to ask for your support in the form of votes?  he's a real talent and a really nice guy.  The show begins Wednesday.  Thank you. http://fox.com/blogs/dance/2009/06/05/top-20-season-5-so-you-think-you-can-dance/ (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 16th, 2009
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Friday, May 15th, 2009
2:43 pm	It's been forever! Hey- Yes I do still exist.  I must tell you all that I finally passed History and Policy!  It took a few tries, but I did it!  I had a pretty good GPA this year too.  It's time for the Summer to begin! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 23rd, 2008
3:04 pm	Uptade... Hey all it's been a while.  Things have been crazy!  I started school again, and it's stressful!  I am taking history and policy over again and it's a major challenge.  I hope it gets better.  I have been trying very hard and read and even reread the material.  I have also been starting my internship and I'm working with people who are going to get their GED and stuff.  I hear it's a difficult population, but it should be fine.  I'm looking forward to the challenge.  I hung out with Emme, Lynn and the kids this weekend.  It was a blast!  We played with the kids and watched a movie.  They make kick ass pizza!  Sunday my family came over for a spaghetti dinner.  Before dinner I went to the store to get pop, chips and cookies.  I had everything in my travel cart and I dragged it home and all the sudden I felt wet stuff hitting my feet.  I looked down and the pop was spraying out of the bag.  I didn't know what to do.  I walked the rest of the way home, leaving a trail of pop for anyone to follow.  How funny, but it wasn't at the time.  (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 23rd, 2008
4:13 am	Insomnia! It is after 4 and I'm still not alseep!  I'm tired, but it's too damn hot here.  I have a fan, but Kevin's using it.  I tried to cool off in the shower, but that didn't work.  Tomorrow is our family picnic and I'm going to be dead tired for it.  When Kevin wakes up I may take the fan back so I can use it.   Well Kevin's been visiting me this week.  It's been great, a very relaxing time.  We've done a lot of visiting with family and friends.  We've also had a lot of time to spend talking and arguing about random things.  He leaves Sunday which kind of sucks.   Monday I start school and Wednesday I begin my new field placement.  It's going to be another crazy year.  I had my field interview on Tuesday.  It was at a Eduational Opportunities organization for single mothers.  I really impressed them by taling about the importance of keeping track of client successes.  They want me to do some research and interviews on the topic.  I'm a bit excited about starting up, but also very nervous.  It is depressing to see the freedom of summer fade away.  I just hope I'm not as drepressed as last school year when field was going down the tubes.   Well now I'm debating whether to either take another shower to cool off, or just attempt to sleep. AAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Current Mood: Over tired! Current Music: David Bowie- All the Madmen (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 30th, 2008
12:10 pm	Damn, August is coming! I'm kind of feeling a little on the sad side, because the Summer break will be over for me very soon.  This summer has flown by.  It's been great too.  I've been fairly busy with traveling, family, friends and volunteering at CSDD.  I'm becoming very anxious, because school is starting soon.  I just hope that it's a good semester and that this year of field is better than last years.  Just hope I don't end up with some supervisor who's fake that that bitch Sheryl.  I have to retake Policy and this time I have a different professor.  I hope she's a little more organized than the last one.   I'm going to enjoy the last 31/2 weeks of my break to the fullest.  Kevin is coming in from Utah on the 17th.  We've been discussing upcoming plans for that  week.  Also, Donna's shower is on the 10th and the bachelorette party on the 30th.  Another upcoming big event is the annual NFB of Buffalo's hot dog sale at Wall-Mart.  It should be a big success like usual. I'll keep you all posted on the happenings.  (Comment on this)
Monday, June 23rd, 2008
12:45 pm	Summer Update... Wow, I must say that time certainly flies when you're busy and mostly having fun.  So far I have been enjoying my summer.  As I've mentioned in a past entry, I visited Kevin (the Wasyman) in Utah and it was a blast.  For the most part I have been doing my best to enjoy myself and take it easy.  I hate to say it, but I would consider myself somewhat lazy.  I have been volunteering for CSDD, but otherwise just playing my days by ear.   I've spent a lot of time catching up with old friends and much needed shopping.  About a week ago I hung out with my friend Emme.  We had a great time.  We went to dinner at Pete's, then did some major shopping.  Honestly, I think I went overboard.  At night we went to see The Happening.  I was happy that Lynn decided to join us.  It was a freaky movie, with all of these people killing themselves in various ways.  I was surprised I was able to fall asleep.   Surprisingly, I ended up spending most of Friday with Bob.  We waked around for a while deciding where to eat lunch.  We finally ended at Boston Market.  We then had some fun at the candy shop.  I ended up with a Coffee Crisp, some assorted truffles and 4 packs of candy cigarettes.  I love candy cigarettes, because they bring back a lot of childhood memories.   I'm getting anxious, because this week I'm supposed to be leaving for Texas to attend the NFB convention.  I'm looking forward to it and I get to see my friends like Kevin and Brandon.  The only part that annoys me is that the only restaurants that are close by are soooo expensive.  I don't know why the issue if price wasn't considered, especially with the amount of starving college students that attend.  I just hope all is well. I'm very worried about my grandfather.  This Friday he is going in for surgery to remove a large tumor from his lung.  They say it's an aggressive cancer.  I just hope that he can make it through and be able to continue living a good quality of life.  Except for extensive lung problems and prostate cancer back in 2001, he has een pretty active and healthy.  He was actually supposed to have the surgery today, but some dumbass moved his surgery to Friday to squeeze in two heart surgeries.   Well I will keep you all posted on any updates.  (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 22nd, 2008
9:51 pm	An eventful week... This week has been quite a blast so far.  Monday Donna and I went to Moe's Southwest Grill and I swear, they have the best food.  Very good, tastey and filling.  We also enjoyed some Mike's Hard Pomagranate Lemonades.  I hung out with David some  too.  Tuesday Emily and I met in the morning and spent the day together.  We ended up watching Joy Ride, which is quite scarey.  We did a lot of talking and laughing.  I ended up spending tuesday night there.  We had dinner, watched American Idal and drank some wine.  Yesterday we went to our grandparents house.  It was great to see them, but I'm worried about my grandpa, because he has tumors on his lungs.  I just hope something can be done.  I have many good memories with my grandparents.  That was my second home as a child.  Even into my adulthood.  It's hard to grasp and accept the concept that they are getting older and things may happen.  We may go back and visit them this weekend.  Emily also said that she want me to come back over this weekend, so she will hopefully call.   It was great to be able to do this, because with school, we haven't been able to.  As kids Emily and I loved to hang out.  We used to play house, and office.  We also had a cousins club.  We made up our own talk show and I still have the tapes.  I want to get the tapes put on to CD.   I am a bit nervous, because I have to meet with the field people next Wednesday.  We have to discuss the arrangements for my field placement.  I just hope all goes well. I have been keeping in touch with Chuck K.  We were friends in my early college years, but lost contact due to a personal matter.  We have since ran into eachother and decided togive friendship another chance.  I plan on being cautious, because I don't want to be hurt again.  I'm keeping my fingers crossed.  (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 19th, 2008
8:08 am	Updates and such... Well I received my grades.  I ended up with a 3.49 for the semester and an overall 3.1.  I am so happy.  I just wish I didn't have to retake firld.  Here's my grades: Diversity and Oppression: B+ Inerventions II:  B+ Organizations:  B+ Evaluations:  A Foundations seminar:  A Field:  U Now I should be able to enjoy my summer and that's exactly what I intend to do.  I had a pretty relaxing weekend  I literally did nothing.   Today, I plan to run some errands, then I'm suppose to go to dinner with Donna.  We're suppose to go to this Southwestern grill place called Moe's.   Tomorrow I'm probably getting together with my cousin Emily.  It's been a while since we've seen each other, due to our busy schedules.  She's in college working on her nursing degree.   I plan on starting up my volunteer jobs again.  I need to call Nichole in the budgeting department and Boots for Self-Advocacy.  I feel bad that school made it impossible for me to stick with these jobs, because I've injoyed them.   Well the NFB convention in Texas is approaching.  I'm a little concerned about mondy.  I just hope everything works out.  I've already booked a roommate and a plane ticket.  I'm supposed to receive funding from my chapter, but our treasure was apparently bitching about giving me funding.  I'm a little worried that something will happen.  she's mad, because they give the same people money to attend convention.  From what I noticed, no one else in our chapter takes an interest in the convention, except for the same four people Bob, Chris, Julie and me.  I don't see what the problem is.  I am a pretty active member.  I like to be envolved in both local and national events.   Peace out all!!!! Current Mood: worried Current Music: David Bowie- Breaking Glass (Comment on this)
Friday, May 16th, 2008
9:15 pm	Grade Update I just wanted to let you all know thatt I just received a B+ in my Diversity and Oppression class.  I am so happy and excited about this.  I was sure I was going to do crappy in the class.  I just hope my other classes go well.  Current Music: David Bowie (Comment on this)
7:12 am	Early riser... I'm up early today, because the roofers are here replacing our roof and they are loud.  I have plans to meet with Emily at  11:00.  We're going to hang out for a while.  I then have to go to Project COACH.   I'm unsure as to what I'm going to do this weekend.  I may spend time with the family, or do something with friends.   Tomorrow my Aund Debbie graduates from college with her Masters degree.  I am so excited for her.  She had a rough life, had kids early.  She dropped out of high school, then ten years later went back for her GED.  Now she is in her mid fifties and getting her degree.  She teaches nursing to other students now.  I may go and watch.   Our NFB meeting was interesting.  There was this continuous smell that was kind of grossing us out.  We're not sure what was going on.  I kept spraying this cotton candy body spray around.  People didn't much like that either, but I coudn't take it.  Angie was laughing at me, because she saw how pissed off I was getting.  Last night we were talking about our NFB summer party.  This year there's going to be a picnic theme.  We're even getting those checkered tablecloths.  I feel bad, because I'm suppose to be helping Barb with the arrangments, but I haven't.  That's mostly because I have been busy and I just got back from Utah this weekend, so I think I'll call her up today.   Current Music: Mott the Hoople- All the Young Dudes (Comment on this)
Thursday, May 15th, 2008
10:21 pm	Some new updates... I've found out some things since I've last posted this morning.  I talked with my field instructor and I have to retake field.  I guess Sheryl wasn't happy with me, surprise surprise.  If I had a choice I woudn't have went there.  I just hope my second time around is better.   I just got back from my NFB meeting.  Bob and I went to Applebees for supper before the meeting.  It was nice to finally see him after at least 3 months.  I had two pomagranite margeritas and was feeling really good.   Well I have been so busy.  I just back from Utah last weekend.  I had a good time there.  I watched Kevin graduate with his BA in Communications.  His ultimate goal is to make it big in radio.  We spent most of the time in Salt Lake City and we visited Park City.  He's moving back home for the time being.  I think he and his dad have to work through some differences in opinions.  Kevin may come in at the end of August.   Yesterday I had dinner with Donna and Michelle.  We've been talking about upcoming wedding stuff.  It's going to be exciting planning and participating in the event.  I also have to say that I look damn good in my dress.   Well I must go for now, but I'll be back soon.  Current Mood: tired! Current Music: David Bowie- The Supermen (Comment on this)
10:34 am	Waiting... I am finished with my first year of graduate school and I'm having mixed feelings.  I look back on this year and call it the "year of self-discovery."  This was a time when I have tested the waters and figured out my strengths and limitations.  First, I have come to the realization that I am not cut out to be a drug and alcohol counselor.  I am still interested in a career with the developmentally disabled community.  I also learned that I need to have more confidence in my abilities and that anxiety has negatively impacted my performance at times.   I also feel that I have to work on my communication skills.  This would have come in handy when I wanted to let Sheryl (my field educator) know exactly how I felt about her teaching style.   Right now I am just patiently waiting on my grades.  I had finished all of my work about 2 weeks ago already and I just want to know how I did.  I am a bit worried about a few classes.  I found out that I got two A's already in Evaluations and Seminar class.  I am happy about those two, but not sure if any of my other grades are any good.  I had trouble with one professor and did my best to communicate with her.  Aparently, many other studenst have encountered the same problems with her.  I am just scared, because I am already on academic warning, so if I get below a 3.0 this semester, I'm out of the program.  Well at least I know one thing, I did try my hardest and that does mean something.   I am excited that summer break is finally here.  I plan on making the best of it.  I will be doing volunteer jobs and I am suppose to attend the NFB convention in Dallas Texas.  I've already been to Utah last week to visit Kevin (Wasyman).   Well I have to go meet with a professor.  I will keep you posted. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, February 25th, 2008
1:40 pm	A brief update... Hey all, I know it's been a while.  I have been extremely busy with school and field.  School is going okay, it's very stressful, but I'm getting through it.  Field is okay too.  Sheryl was on vacation last week and I was under the supervision of Janet.  I don't much care for her.  She had a problem with the notes that I wrote for the group.  I feel that she didn't do a very good job addressing.  To me sheo comes off as kind of bitchy, but what can I do?  Not much.  I will probably get hell from Sheryl this week about it.   I just finished a paper, a book review to be exact.  I didn't do a very good job on it though.  I waited until the last minute to finish.  Well that was mostly because I only got the book on Thursday.  I had to borrow it from the professor, because the bookstore ran out.  Now that one was fucked up.  Someone didn't order enough for the entire class.  What kind of dumbass would do that?  I'm thinking either the professor or the store people.   I had an okay weekend.  I spent it with my family.  We hung out and took the kids ice skating.  I also got to play with the puppy.  He's cute, but he's also bad lol.  I also did a lot of reading.  I was able to finish the book, but my eyes were burning.   Oh yeah, I went out with Laurie and Shelly on saturday.  We went to see Phil in his new band Naughty Dawg.  It was great.  It was like a mixture of classic rock and country.  I have class today, then I have to go to CSDD to do an abuse refresher training for Project COACH.  I will probably then just go home and relax, because I'm tired. Well I have to get to class, just thought I'd say hi.  Current Music: Supertramp- School (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 7th, 2008
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Monday, December 3rd, 2007
5:57 pm	I just don't know...  Well my first semester of grad. school is coming to an end very shortly.  I am not happy with the way things are going.  I haven't had the motivation I once did.  I know part of it is me being lazy, but a major part is that I have been going through some kind of depression.  I am somewhat not happy with the way the program is going.  There is a lot of work annd some of it is overwhelming.  I also sometimes feel like I'm drowning and I am unable to catch a breath.   There are so many others who are so much smarter than me.  I feel like I may not be able to continue if this keeps up.  I worry what people will think of me if I dont do well.  I probably shouldn't worry about it at this point. I feel bad, because I always hand in my 10 page papers to professor Critelli late.  These papers are so complex thatit's crazy.  Today in her class, she had everyone do their presentations in front of the class.  I was last and she did not allow me enough time.  First she asked me to shorten my presentation.  Then during the presentation students from the next class that occupies that room were coming in and she was asking them if they could wait.  Even the other professor came in.  At this point I was too distracted, so I told her that I couldn't continue.  She felt bad and apologized to me.  Wow, I wonder what I'm going to get on a fifteen point presentation that I couldn't even give.  I swear, that woman is crazy.   Tonight I'm tired, but I have to add some stuff to a literature review that is due tomorrow for our group.  I hope I will do well and that other group members don't give me hell about now having it done already.  Well if someone had a problem, they know my e-mail. I better find a way to stay awake, because I'm ready to lay down right here and just sleep. I can't wait until next Wednesday.  I will no longer have to worry about this crap.  I am looking forward to the break.  (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, November 25th, 2007
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Friday, November 9th, 2007
11:37 pm	At a loss... Hey all, It's been a crazy time for me.  I have had a lot of things going on with school and my field placement.  I'm learning more everyday and becoming more confident in my abilities.  One problem is that my supervisor has me filing and I found out that I'm not suppose to be doing that.  I think I will address that issue next week. Class is a whole other story.  A majority of classes are going well.  I have B averages in most of them, except for Policy.  We got a 14/15 on the debate, but everything else sucks.  I got a 3/5 on one and a 3.5/5 on another.  I have this 10 page paper due Monday, I have six pages so far, but It know it won't be good enough for her.  It was actually due last week, but I was having trouble getting my laptop to work, and I couldn't go to school, because I was stuck in Albany, which prevented me from doing it.  The one paper took me six hours and I got a 70% and it was only a fucking five pager.  I'm just worried what will happen to me if I fail a class in grad. school.  I wonder if I'll be kicked out for failing one class.  It makes me feel hopeless at times and unmotivated, because nothing I do for her is ever good enough.  I e-mailed the beginning six pages from the paper, but she don't get back to me.  She's a bitch anyway. Last weekend was our state convention in Albany.  It was fun.  I hung out with a lot of Buffalo people and some from NY city.  I got to see my friend Craig, who is originally from Colorado.  Bob was there and he was getting all close to this one woman, who I never met before.  I almost wanted to inform her of what he can be like, but I was nice.  I enjoyed myself.  The banquet was great, I was drinking vodka, cranberries all night.  I'm in the mood for a good drink right now, but I'm not going to the store this late.  Maybe tomorrow I'll pick up some. Tomorrow I think I'm going to the Galleria Mall, then I'm not sure what's going on.  Manny wants me to go to a gay bar.  I was think about it, but not too sure yet.   I'm feeling so drained right now.  I am going to head to bed soon.   Current Mood: blah Current Music: TV in background (Comment on this)
Saturday, October 20th, 2007
8:26 am	I'm finally connected... Hey all, Sorry, it's been quite a while since I"ve posted.  A lot has been happening lately.  First, I just got internet at home yesterday.  This is my first time with DSL and so far I like it.  It's pretty quick.  I love being able to go on whenever I want.   Grad. school has been going well.  I've done well on all of my papers so far.  Theres one I'm not sure of yet.  We had a debate in Policy class monday and our side was killed.  The other side was kind of nasty.  Our professor said we didn't focus much on policies, but that was because the topic was so vague.  I hope it all goes well.  I'm starting to see that there are some assholes in the program and I don't like that.   Another big thing is that my family just got a puppy.  He is so cute.  He's a black pug named Rocco (Rockie).  He seems to listen pretty well.  I am probably going to see him today.  When I get a pic of him I'll post it.  It seems strange though, because my mom made a point to let us know that she didn't want pets in the house.  I guess she's softening up a bit.   I have to make sure I RSVP for Donna's engagement party today.  It's next Saturday at her aunt's house.  I'm excited, because I haven't seen her family in ages.  I'm a bet nervous though, because there are going to be tons of people I've never met.  Plus, Michelle wil be there and her and I haven't always been on good terms.  I just hope all goes well.   For some reason I had trouble sleeping this morning.  I was up by 4:30 and couldn't go back to sleep.  I've been been on the internet since 6. My field placement is going well so far.  I kind of like working with individuals with addictions.  My supervisor says I have a talent for the work.  I am strongly considering seeking employment in that concentration after graduation.   Well I'm done for now, but I will try to be better about posting. Current Mood: hungry Current Music: computer fan (Comment on this)
Friday, September 21st, 2007
1:11 pm	The weekend is here yay!!!!! Well it's almost been a month since graduate school began and so far everyththing is good.  I got a 100% on my first assignment.   Next week I start my field placement.  I was supposed to meet with the woman today, but she called in sick.  I start Wednesday.  I think the first week will mostly be basic introduction stuff.  I'll probably doing a lot of observing.  I sometimes wonder if they're entirely comfident in my abilities.  I think I'll be using my new laptop for any computer work.   Speaking of...  I just got my laptop on Wednesday.  It's great.  I can even get wireless internet at school.  I'm waiting for the Verizon people to contact me.  I attempted contact with them, but no one has called back.  I am worried, because my first bill will most likely be sky high.   Last night I went out to dinner with Cindy and Donna.  We had a good time.  We then came back and played Polish Rummy in Donna's yard like old times.  I would like to hear feedback.  Everyone I've talked to, except for my group of neighborhood friends say they've never heard of Polish Rummy.  In fact, certain people accused us of making it up.  So I would like to know if any of you have ever heard of it.  Cindy won.  I ended up missing my NFB meeting, because Cindy came in from California and this was the only night she was free.  I just hope the chapter understands.  Donna and I talked about going wine tasting in the near future.  That would be fun.  I always wanted to do that. Tonight I am doing my banking and then I'm suppose to go out with Laurie to see WireFire play in Springville.   Tomorrow, I'm possibly going to a family party and then to visit Dave.   Sunday I think I'm visiting my dad. I'll talk with you all later. Current Mood: hungry Current Music: People talking and typing (1 Comment |Comment on this)